darkandtwistyscorpio asked: What is your sign?... What would your dream house be like?...If you could change something about yourself, what would it be & why?...What is your favorite word? [sry for the spam]

Don’t be sorry for the spam~! Questions are awesome!

I’m a Leo, and a rather proud one (but I guess that isn’t too surprising because… really XD). I’m born on July 24th, so… KINDA SORTA VAGUELY on the cusp with Cancer, and if it means anything, my Moon Sign is Cancer. I’m like 98% certain I’m not meant to be this thorough with my answer but… seeing as I know this much, I’ll say it, anyway. XD

~Surprise honesty time~ My ideal dream house is a big old Victorian styled house set SOMEWHERE near water (a river, lake, or maybe the ocean?), and preferably somewhere at least lightly forested. There are an awful lot of dream houses that I have in my head, but if I have to choose one, it would be that one. Living in an urban setting for the past few years has made me SORELY miss nature.

From a physical standpoint, IIIIIII guess I would probably prefer to be a little curvier than I actually am? I love being a pear; my hips are probably my favorite part of my body. But the classic hourglass shape…? Well, that’s classic for a reason. It’s the best of everything~ From a not-so-physical standpoint, I really, really wish I wasn’t as hardcore of a perfectionist as I am. On the one hand, it’s a great motivator, in a way - I always try to be better and better. But when I fumble or fail? Ugh. I try hard not to let others see, but there are times when I REALLY beat myself up, and I hate it. So I’d want to change that.

FAVORITE WORD, OOH. I have legitimately never thought about that! XD Do foreign words counts, and if so, am I allowed a two-word phrase? Because I love jolie laide. It’s a French term for the concept of ‘pretty ugly.’ Like a person who is not conventionally beautiful, but still attractive, despite that. I absolutely LOVE jolie laide. If I’m really only allowed ONE word, and jolie laide doesn’t count… I would choose ‘forever.’ Forever is an amazing concept.

Anonymous asked: Looking forward to the day you'll finish DEG challenge.

That day is today. XD Not sure if this was a message left in interest over my posts or if it was moreso a “oh good no more really long posts,” because trust me, I could see it going either way. I type A LOTTTTT. A freakish lot. I know this. XD

But yeah, I finished jussst now. And I filed them all under a unique tag, not JUST “questionaire.” So if anyone actually does want to wade through my Diru Challenge posts, clickittyclack here:

30 Days of Diru

Day 30: If you could say one thing to all of Dir en grey, what would it be?

AND NOW I HAVE REACHED THE END.

I’m going to put all of this under a read more cut, because knowing myself, it is going to get LONG and probably really emotional and such. XD

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Day 25: A Dir en grey song you can relate to the most.

THAT AWKWARD MOMENT WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU SKIPPED A DAY IN THE DIRU CHALLENGE. o.o I’m finishing today, though~ Well, I guess that technically, I should finish tomorrow, but the answer for Day 25 has already been stated in Day 7 (the answer is “Kodou”), so Day 25 is only going to consist of some copypasted segments from that day after the read more cut, and that’s more or less it. Sooooo I’ll post Day 30 after this one, and then I’ll be allllll done~

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Day 29: Have you seen them live (tell us about it) / do you plan to.

Um, well I’ve kind of already babbled about it a tiny bit on Day 24 and Day 28… o.o I have seen them live twice, and if anyone wants a more detailed description of my first time seeing them (The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow, SF show), they can go through the flaming hoop that is making a friendship request on my LiveJournal and then reading this entry, but the gist of it is that I had a blast and ultimately ended up diving over the front bar after their set to retrieve Die’s pick, and later came into possession of Toshiya’s pick, as well. XD If anyone wants a more detailed description of my second time seeing them (Age Quod Agis, SF show), they can read this post I made on Tumblr (YAYYYYY no accursed censorship ~vagueass shit don’t ask~). But the gist of THAT post, if you don’t want to read all of it, is much the same as my first time seeing them - had a blast, ended up diving over the bar at the end and retrieving a pick again, Toshiya’s. Key difference: My beloved Jael Face and her honey were with my honey and I. XD

And yes, I absolutely plan on seeing them again the next time they happen to be touring near me. I’m assuming this won’t be too difficult… I mean I live in the Bay Area now and they almost always hit up SF, and then I’m planning to move to LA this summerish? And they ALWAYS hit up LA. XD So there WILL be more opportunities…

Day 28: Your favorite Dir en grey merchandise that you own.

Do picks count as merchandise? I don’t know if they do; I didn’t BUY them. I OBTAINED them by diving over the front bar at their shows… o.o Anyway, ignore my face; the picture is up to show two of the three picks that I have in possession. They are my babies. Tots’ pick (in my mouth XD) I got at the Age Quod Agis show in SF, and Die’s pick (the one strung on a chain around my neck) I got at The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow show, ALSO in SF. By the way, I also got Tots’ pick at The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow show, as well. Much less flattering proof pictures here:


So… yeah. If you’re telling me that picks don’t count as merch, then… for one, I cry tears of sadness. For two, I guess… I’d have to choose the tour shirts I got. I got one at each show I’ve been to (Just The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow and Age Quod Agis so far).

Day 28: Your favorite Dir en grey merchandise that you own.

Do picks count as merchandise? I don’t know if they do; I didn’t BUY them. I OBTAINED them by diving over the front bar at their shows… o.o Anyway, ignore my face; the picture is up to show two of the three picks that I have in possession. They are my babies. Tots’ pick (in my mouth XD) I got at the Age Quod Agis show in SF, and Die’s pick (the one strung on a chain around my neck) I got at The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow show, ALSO in SF. By the way, I also got Tots’ pick at The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow show, as well. Much less flattering proof pictures here:

So… yeah. If you’re telling me that picks don’t count as merch, then… for one, I cry tears of sadness. For two, I guess… I’d have to choose the tour shirts I got. I got one at each show I’ve been to (Just The Unwavering Fact of Tomorrow and Age Quod Agis so far).

Day 27: Your favorite Dir en grey gif.

YOU CAN’T MAKE ME CHOOSE JUST ONE. FUCK THE POLICE. Anyway… So. The gif of Kyo… it is my favorite because HIS HIPS. OH GOD. HIS HIPS. And the gif of Tots… is my favorite because THAT SLIDING. Oh fuck, guys. I mean to be honest any gif of Tots playing on his sezzar bass could easily be among my favorites. Like I seriously just love watching his fingers. OOPH.

Day 26: Your favorite group / member quote.

“Not everything that one cannot understand is a lie or an error.” - Kyo

Because it’s absolutely, positively the truth, and I feel like there are too many people in the world who don’t realize this.

“In my opinion, music can’t save the world, but I think it can change a person’s life. So just for someone to listen to our music and understand us is already something amazing.” - Toshiya

THIS SO HARD. I love that he acknowledges that amazingness. They make music that touches people. He’s not going to go out on a limb and say the music fixes everything wrong on the planet, but I think he’s right when he says that it can change a person’s life, even if only in small, comforting ways.

Belle/Meg/Pocahontas/Esmeralda all tied at 9. Snow White is next at 8, then Jasmine/Mulan at 7, if that means anything. XD

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Belle

[x] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like. 
[ ] You’ve been lost in the forest. 
[x] You love to read. 
[x] You are not shy at all.
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird.
[x] You have done volunteer work.
[x] You have a wild imagination.
[x] You love to take care of people in need.
[x] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty. 
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out.
Total: 9

Rapunzel
[ ] You’re an orphaned child or have an evil step-mother. 
[x] You have many different hobbies to keep you busy.
[ ] You can get really bored.
[x] You have/had very long hair.
[ ] Your hair is/was bright blonde.
[x] You’re an artsy person.
[x] You’re childish.
[ ] You can’t wait to stop the same routine each day and start living.
[x] You care about others and their feelings.
[ ] You like to follow the rules.
Total: 5

Alice
[ ] You have/had a pet rabbit.
[ ] You love to play cards.
[ ] You constantly know the time.
[x] You get yourself in sticky situations.
[x] You have been to a court. 
[x] You have fallen asleep while doing your homework.
[ ] You have had a tea party.
[x] You like hats.
[ ] You’re late.
[x] You know how to play croquet.
Total: 4

Jasmine
[ ] Your dad is rich.
[x] You are very clever.
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you.
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else.
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich.
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself.
[x] You don’t have a lot of (good) friends.
[x] You’re independent.
[ ] You are wealthy.
[ ] Your parents try to control your life.
Total: 7

Megara
[x] Your boyfriend/crush is strong.
[x] You have gotten involved with the wrong people before.
[x] You are very convincing. 
[x] You have fallen in love before.
[x] You have had your heart broken. 
[x] You find an interest in Greek mythology.
[x] You lie sometimes. 
[ ] You pretend to be someone you’re not. 
[x] You have been used. 
[x] Purple is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 9

Ariel
[ ] Your parents expect a lot from you. 
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you. 
[ ] You’re a bit of a trouble maker.
[ ] You’re the youngest in your family.
[ ] You have a lot of sisters.
[ ] You collect something. 
[x] You have/had long hair. 
[x] You are adventurous. 
[x] You’re extremely curious. 
[ ] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible. 
Total: 3



Aurora
[x] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents.
[x] You almost died at a very young age.
[ ] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful.
[x] You have a decent singing voice.
[ ] You like to sleep in late on the weekend.
[ ] You spend most of your time outside.
[ ] You’re adopted.
[x] You’re very romantic.
[x] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 5


Cinderella
[ ] One of your parents is dead.
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores.
[x] You love to dress up.
[x] You love animals. 
[ ] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming.
[ ] Your mom is really strict.
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you. 
[ ] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes.
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before.
[ ] You have/had blonde hair.
Total: 2

Snow White
[x] You know that you’re beautiful.
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you.
[x] You’ve almost been killed.
[x] You have at least seven good friends.
[x] You’ve had food poisoning. 
[x] You have/had short hair.
[x] You get along with almost everyone.
[x] All of your friends are different.
[x] You love to have a good time. 
[ ] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in.
Total: 8

Tinkerbell 
[ ] You get jealous easily.
[ ] You loved your childhood.
[x]You like to fly.
[x] You believe in magic. 
[ ] You’re 5’2” or under.
[ ] You hate pirates.
[x] You love sparkles.
[x] People underestimate you.
[x] You get angry easily. 
[ ] You have/had a treehouse. 
Total: 5

Pocahontas 
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities.
[x] You are more spiritual than religious.
[x] You’ve been in an interracial relationship.
[x] One of your family members is dead.
[ ] Your parents are very protective of you.
[x] Someone you know has been in the war.
[x] You love nature.
[x] You have/had black hair. (Dark brown is close enough I don’t know? XD)
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful.

[x] You’re very adventurous.

Total: 9


Mulan 
[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly.
[ ] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not.
[x] You’ve had a physical fight with someone.
[x] You have/had considered running away from home. 
[ ] Your parents try to plan your life out.
[x] A lot of your friends are boys.
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations.
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
Total: 7


Esmeralda 
[x] You love to dance
[ ] You’ve fallen in love with someone you hated at first
[x] You hate dogma (religious authority that oppresses)
[x] You are free-spirited
[x] You have a fiery temper
[x] You love goats
[x] You like to be sexy
[x] You are involved in the taboo
[x] You love rich colors and jewelry
Total: 9

Day 24: Most memorable moment with Dir en grey.

HEY HOW ABOUT THE TIME I WAS AT THE UNWAVERING FACT OF TOMORROW TOUR AND WAS REACHING OUT TO PLUCK A GUITAR PICK FROM DIE’S HAND AND THEN IT GOT KNOCKED ONTO THE FLOOR AND THEN I DOVE OVER THE BAR TO RETRIEVE IT AND DIE BASICALLY BOOKED IT?

I think that’s pretty freaking memorable. XD I’m assuming he either doesn’t remember me, OR, if he does, he isn’t quite so scarred by my actions, because I went to the Age Quod Agis show in SF and I THINK he smiled at me when I held up that pick of his, which I have strung onto a chain around my neck.

(Also I ended up diving/getting tossed over the bar at THAT show… O.o Retrieved Toshiya’s pick. So I still need Kaoru’s pick, and Shinya’s drumstick. And… I don’t know. Kyo’s waterbottle or something. XD)

19 Questions I Stole from Jael Face. XD

Actually putting it under a Read More cut because it is literally enormous. XD   

1.The Meaning behind my URL : 

Brenli is my online handle for like ALL THE PLACES. XD It’s my first name and my middle name, rehashed and sandwiched together. Brenda Lee —> Bren Lee —> Bren Li —> BrenLi —> Brenli. Since then (around Junior year of highschool), I have learned that Brenli is actually a given name in possession by a couple people in the world (one of which is following me XD), and that Brenli is also the SURNAME for a family with roots in Norway. I was actually contacted by them, curious about me. XD So my URL is definitely… interesting, to say the least. All I’d wanted to do was rehash my own name. XD

Annnnnd just because this is a sort of “phrase” that I tack on as a tagline in some parts of the Interwebz and paste on my header images… “Ugly Beautiful” is a canned statement regarding the inherent duality that I believe to be present in all of us. I believe that we are ALL ‘ugly beautiful,’ whether we’re willing to admit that or not. We all have flaws and we all have amazing qualities living inside of us. This duality is what makes us human and I believe that we benefit in accepting and, to some extent, embracing the ugly beautiful quality in ourselves. (Also, if you look at the kanji at the beginning and end of my Tumblr name… 醜 or minikui means ugliness, while 美 or bi means beauty, so… if you weren’t aware, NOW YOU ARE. XD)

Ugly Beautiful also happens to be the title for a six-part novel series I am writing, involving a band KNOWN as Ugly Beautiful. XD The band, and thus the series, were called that due to my need for an impromptu name, but since then I think it reflects the band and the series very well… Hence why I have felt no need to change it. So no, I’m not necessarily constantly advertising the series when I paste “Ugly Beautiful” onto things… OR AM I? >8D

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Day 23: Your 3 favorite pictures of Toshiya.

THIS WAS THE HARDEST THING. IT WASN’T EVEN BECAUSE I COULDN’T FIND A CERTAIN PICTURE, LIKE WITH KYO. NO. THIS WAS THE HARDEST THING BECAUSE I HAVE TOO MANY. I HAD TO LEAVE ONE OUT AND IT CAUSES ME SO MUCH PAIN. ~WHINE WHINE WHINE~

Day 22: Your 3 favorite pictures of Shinya.

Day 21: Your 3 favorite pictures of Die.

Of course Die’s smile is one of my favorites. A picture featuring his smile should be one of EVERYONE’S favorites. Die’s smile is one of Japan’s national treasures.

Day 20: Your 3 favorite pictures of Kaoru.